Joel has been going to boot camp. We have all heard of the type. RUN SKIP PUSH UP and DO IT NOW. He loves it. He has found so much determination in getting healthy. Today after class, he felt as though he was having a panic attack. The medics were called, and ultimately he was brought into the ER.
Me, well I was sleeping. Little did I know how much our life was about the change. While sitting with Joel in the ER and trying to calm what I initially thought was anxiety I quickly realized something was not right. And with in an hour of waiting in the ER Joel had a major seizure (the turn purple, bite your tongue and roll your eyes kind). Our doctor was so kind an quick to get Joel to CT, where a quick scan was done. I went along for the ride, and there I saw it. Quickly all be it... but I saw a tumor.
The moments that followed involved me praying to God mostly that I was crazy and hallucinating. Then the doctor grabbed me, took me to his computer, and said a few bad but tasteful words as I looked that the gosh, dong it screen. There it was. A tumor. Measuring 5x8cm. Tears welled up, the doctor hugged me. I go back into Joel, having to tell him over and over again. His memory was quite foggy from the seizure. We got mad, partially cause we were supposed to have a wonderful day off together... and take a princess to chucka cheese... We cried, watched a little television, and cried more. We were thankful we had a wonderful day yesterday, working on projects around the house and watching movies with princess.
Doctor visits, MRIs, friends, family and now the little dots with shaved on his head are painful reminders of what changes lie ahead. The tumor has to go. Surgery makes the tumor go. Yes and prayers.
We don't know a ton about the tumor, except the actual mass is apx 3x3cm and the effected area is 5x8 cm. Its a very substantial sized tumor. Effecting the right Pre-Motor cortex. Yes there is some ventricle involvement, and yes there is a slight herniation occurring.Yes is has some vascular intervention. Is it cancer? We don't know until he gets in there. Most signs say no, some signs say yes. Does this suck? YEP are we still praying and holding onto faith. You bet.
Joel has had no symptoms that would scream "TUMOR IN BRAIN" No headaches, NOTHING! Yep I am mad.
Today is Monday. We need three days of steroids on board to reduce the edema in his brain surrounding the tumor. The surgery is well... brain surgery... that about as scary as it gets. No way to soften that blow.
We are in ICU tonight. Mostly so he can be monitored, he is on seizure medication already, and praise God we have not had a seizure since this morning.
His recovery will take time. The brain really gets quite annoyed when touched. We are planning a week plus here in the hospital. I am not sure if Joel knows this. As for me and my hyper-planning in life, don't worry I am still planning everything. Just most cause every other plan in our life is on hold. jobs, life, health, well everything.
So for now we wait. We trust. We pray. We love. One day. One moment. Right now.
I implore you-- please pray For Strength. Wisdom. Guidance. Joy. Peace. Provision.
We are so thankful for the love and compassion already. Its honestly quite overwhelming.
Tonight I will sleep knowing that HIS joy will come in the morning.
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PRAY FOR MY HUSBAND.