Sunday, June 23, 2013

Another birthday!

Princess is turning another year older! We are celebrating as parents of young children can.... Presents, friends, parties and treats. It's hard to believe how much life has changed in the last year.

We are exceedingly grateful. She is a miracle. We celebrate every birthday extra hard as life is truly so precious!!

Our life is slowly becoming more normal. We are praying for a job transfer closer to home for Joel. This is critically important as commuting feeds his fatigue/energy levels/which affects critical thinking.

Joel is doing well, I am so proud of him. We still have frustrations at times but, it's improved dramatically. 

Me? I am still busy. Working as much as I can, but continuing to fight hormones. Fatigue has been a challenge as I haven't felt quite like myself much (energy wise since my last hospitalization) that med really was hard on me!

So I guess it's safe to say, we are trying for another baby. Unfortunately we are climbing another uphill battle. I have pcos (poly cystic ovarian syndrome is a condition that caused me to have miscarriages, ovulation problems, and was why I was on the medication that almost killed me last fall.) I also have Endometreosis, and this January I did hormone injections to block the extra growth causing chronic abdominal pain. (Read into this side effects! Migraines, hot flashes, menopausal)

Add that into; the lesser known side effect from brain injuries is the effect of injury/surgery on neuro transmitters... Aka hormones, so we have had to fine tune Joel's levels as well. This has been a bit challenging but is slowly improving. To say the least, we visit my fertility dr often. We are thankful for a caring dr who has been in our life for many years.

Why am I sharing this? Not to be felt sorry for, or to be asked questions like "are you pregnant?" but rather for other families who are struggling to achieve a level of normalcy AC (after cancer) striving toward dreams from BC (before cancer) with some sense of hope. This is what we always dreamed of, cancer delayed this dream, but it did not crush it. We feel strongly our little birthday princess was intended to be a big sister, not an only child.

Well I guess some would ask why? Why add more to our plate? Why risk my health again? Why not? Why let cancer stop us? Cancer will always be over our head... Ha! literally in his. We accept this... don't really like it, but accept it. There are risks on all sides with this. But why run life on risks and what ifs? Is my God not faithful this far? Why would this end? He promises to never leave us, and he hasn't yet.

In our honest approach with cancer, we feel this includes our infertility journey. My posting about this subject may be limited, and poorly detailed, but ultimately I intend to continue to share our story. Do know we are already a few months into this story.

So. That aside if you wanna pray... Pray for Joel's job. He enjoys working, but commuting is becoming an evident problem. 
Pray for me, as my miscarriage rate is high, the cost of infertility is costly in both a financial aspect and emotional aspect. This is taxing on my body, and tests can be painful. Pray for princess as its hard on her having mommy off her kibble... 

Thank you for continuing to follow our life. Know the best is yet to come!!  

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Jill, this post made me cry. Thank you for your honesty, your willingness to be bold in your sharing and most of all thank you for your unwavering faith. This is what I needed to read this morning as I face my own battles trusting the Lord. You are precious and blessed. Thank you. ~ Cara