Old has gone...

Just thought about asking Joel to go get me a coffee.. Then I remembered he can't drive yet...

I am not complaining, but it's these moments that remind me how things are not the same. I am thankful for so many things. We have and will continue to survive so many things in days ahead. A simple coffee just reminds me that there is no going back. The old is gone and new has come.

My heart breaks at times for my once very independent husband now needing me or others constantly. I know this is the hardest part about a repeat surgery. 24 hour care and complete dependence on yours truly. I love him dearly so I don't even think twice about this season. Thankfully Grace and love and humor have infiltrated even the hardest moments! I know this will continue in days ahead!

Do pray as we enter another work weekend. Pray for our village as they fill my shoes. Pray for Joel and that his frustrations will be few, as his heart is reminded this is only a season. Pray for Princess as my working was hard on her last weekend. Pray for me as I seem to be tired at times. Go figure.

Thank you for your prayers, love and support!

Quick post!

I survived my first days back at work. Fortunately they were quite steady... Maybe a bit too steady but, it was fun to be back and working all over the hospital. It's exhausting... If you have never worked 13 hours, yet alone providing at times critical care then you have no clue! Hehe that aside I love my coworkers and patients. It was nice to be normal. Tired... Darn daylight savings time... But really quite normal.


Joel and princess survived. It was hard on him and I to be apart.. Very hard on princess too! Joel and I have developed a bit of routine and he can be himself without having to think about his lack of filter...


We have the big details worked out for California now working on smaller details! We are so thankful for generous friends and family. You have lightened our load so very very much!


Will post more later! It's super windy and rainy snowy weird weather here today.. And it's nap time in our house.


Pray for an organized mind as we pack, continued progress for Joel, and peace to surround our daughter.

A quick shot of normal

Today is the last day before I go back to work... I will work weekends until we leave for surgery so I may extend my leave out long enough to get Joel well, on his way back to recovery.

Pray for us in this. I work in the same hospital where Joel was treated initially... Who knows there may be a few emotions with this. Mostly thankful as the care we had was truly outstanding! Also I may have jammed my toe this evening and it's puffy and sore!!

Pray for Joel as- he will have others helping him. Pray he is learning coping skills and has a restful few days.

Pray for Princess- she is a Mama's girl to the max these days. She understands that she is going to be away from us for awhile when we stay in California and she returns to Oregon. She has been doing well but tonight is a bit amped up.

Today we had fun! E took pictures of our family yesterday and I am thrilled to post them hopefully Monday!!!

We continue to be thankful beyond words. Trips to the post office have yielded thoughtful and generous gifts . Often bringing us to tears. The blessings keep coming. Every card filled with deep love carries us farther each day. Thank you.

Here is princess driving her cool car! This one is for you Carr! She loves her mustang too!

Another day

We are continuing to be thankful daily for generous friends, co workers, orthodontists, and family... It eases my burden greatly... To pay all the bills and have my amount nearly perfectly match what's due... Well it could only be God.


My quiet is easily translated at busy. We are home, there is unpacking sorting cleaning and shifting happening... I am preparing for round two while still fighting round one at times.

Joel is doing better everyday. Rest and consistency are crucial for him. His patience and ability to cope is improving. His mind is sharp and fast... Which at five am......

Princess is doing better. Time home is good... But she does miss papa...

Me? I have good days and bad ones too... My heart is at times heavy with stress though I know God provides... The what ifs are often not my friend... And frankly sleep can feel restless. I am returning to work for the next three weeks so I can extend my FMLA leave until after his surgery and he is safe again. Seizure risk returns post op for awhile.

But I rejoice in God. Even through tears, I am thankful we can fight this cancer. I am thankful that my husband has had a change in his heart that only God can bring. I am thankful we can bank sperm for future, if indeed we need to start chemo and radiation. No one human knows the days ahead- but we plan. We plan for an abundant life. We dream and trust.

So please pray. Pray for peace in days ahead. Pray for continued provision as we plan San Francisco. Pray for protection over us physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Thank you for your love, support and prayers. You have lightened our load in this.

A lazy day

This is a bit of normal... and we made cupcakes... Yum... Rainbow chip with strawberry frosting!!!

Home.

We are home. It's a bit surreal. Life seems normal, but so far from it. The normal moments we all have taken for granted...eating dinner together nearly brought me to tears of thankfulness...

Enjoy those normal moments friends for they are precious..

Oh and thanks chip... We won another day!!

April 4

Well the date is set... Tickets are purchased... No other details yet- except we are thankful for willing compassionate people who are trying to help us. I am in short a small town girl... I love my hospital.. We are going to a city... It is far from my home.. Stress aside I am choosing to have faith in God's continued provision.

Pray for this too... Pray I find a pot of gold... Ha but really God provides so we are hopeful.... Lodging is a challenge in the area but we know this will work out... Pray with us

Pray for us as a family. This will be the longest time princess will be away from us... I suspect it will be hardest on me.


Thank you for continued love and support.